!llumination

2012-02-11T02:29:00.001-08:00

Oh God.
i was going to post about how my team was selfish and hypocritical.
but thats not so important right now.
its selfish.
and stupid.

why do i preoccupy myself with these stupid thoughts when there are better things to think about.
when there are more important things.

Today, my church friend told me her aunt just passed away.
and my exchange program friend told me her buddy's parents were getting divorced.

are my problems really that important?
am I really that important?

2012-02-06T16:45:00.000-08:00

Havent blogged in forever...
Bored as hell.
chinese lesson sucks.
Why do chinese teachers have to be so Lousy!
Lin lao shi better x100.
Siandiaos
...
Yao shui jiao:(

waiting!

2012-01-26T05:43:00.000-08:00

always waiting...
today, im waiting, for you, to notice im online=D

New year

2012-01-21T04:16:00.001-08:00

Cny is coming! It's the time of the year for money again!! Heh. Ill pay for stuffs for you:)

Life in boarding:D

2012-01-19T05:07:00.000-08:00

Hao xiang neng gou tian tian jian dao ni!
Dan ni bu Yao:/
hao lei o!
xian zai mei you le ni wo reng chi shui..
Ming tian xing nian le, dao di yao mai shen me gei ni ne?
heh.

First French Lesson!

2012-01-13T06:07:00.000-08:00

Alright. first french lesson was cool!
After school ended then we like waited around for Kay Yang and Daryl Yeo, then went j8 together for lunch. then we reach j8 then they say they want go saybons. den we bolui (me dfs and jiahe) so we went s11. then after we went s11 then they told us they at subway. geniuses. so we went subway and ate kay yangs cookie=P
After subway then me DFS and jiahe went bishan library to hunt for tarleng and odelia but apparently they werent there today so dfs went home den kay yang came. then you sms me then i went moelc library read the comic=P with you=P den the RGS bus came den RGS ppl came in then we went out then saw louisa and alicia.
Then finally we had french lesson.
sat behind alicia for class so not so bad. had someone to talk to. like megan walking in den she was walking to sit with me den mlle fournier asked her sit down-.- then yea i forever alone. LOL. Fournier(pronounced FOUR-NIER or 4deny), is quite nice eh! she allows us to work at our own paces and like dont force us to stay tgther. and her policies are cool=D hope i wont disappoint her! wanna be a good student for french=D gave megan and athira their presents. left kit yin and courtney=P heavy bagggg.
went airport dinner after for idk whut.
den my mom got the airport staff discount then she veh like happy so like can buy whatever you want at kopitiam ohyea=P haha=D

anws, random revelation in french, targetted at the french students in the exchange!(how appropriate:P) :
连你我的天空都不一样，还有什么能让我忘不了你呢？

tired

2012-01-12T05:41:00.000-08:00

schools so tiring.
my mom just started working and apparently dont even have time to take advantage of that.
everyday reach home later than her.
how is this happening.
am exhausted now...
but you ni shen me dou okay=D

Bruno Mars - It Will Rain (Boyce Avenue cover)(Twilight Soundtrack) on i...

2012-01-08T08:19:00.000-08:00

there'll be no sunlight, nor clear skies if i lose you baby!

2012-01-01T06:34:00.000-08:00

disappointed that you still cant tell me stuffs.

new year!!!

2012-01-01T05:48:00.001-08:00

OHOHOH I NEED TO POST ABOUT THE EPIC NEW YEARS EVE...
new years eve super packed.
slept at like 2.30 am the night before cos went wedding dinner(osim boss brother daugter) at shangrila! and den wanted go kbox at ehub den too ex den went maccafe den went home=D
so... reached home at 2.15 or smthin. so i prolly slept at 2.45!
and i woke at 8. before my alarm rang. and i got up, den my bro was like, eh wanna go church? den im like erm... okay.
den super rush pack pack pack.
den went for the last session in encounter camp and heard all their sharings yeap!
cool=D plan to be a better brother to my mei mei. dk how. but ill try... =S
anyways after that went straight to gaoges house, after a brief stop at lot 1 to shop for zaras christmas present XD
then left at like 645 after setting up everything... sighs. sad.
then went for the gig, which ended at like 10.
then chiong out wanted go back cck with linqi cos he live there.
then in the end left my guitar at the kampong ubi CC. den need go back after taking like from eunos to lavendar. sighs. den after that siandiaoed. so just stoned at the cc and did nonsense den go home lor. den slept at like 1+ after calling somebody in the middle of the night XD hahaha
then woke up early today and went church!
helped with the p1s and 2s for lesson and their so cute!!!
then after had service. haha went to attic cos super tired den if i slept dowan to be bad example. den partly wanted to see if janice javis there. but nope...
den actually fell asleep. awkward. hahaha.
then after service had cool buffet lunch, den had games!!! super fun.
haha me and my brothers owned cos we're total indiscriminate cheaters=D
then had soccer! super fun tho super tiring=D
then reached home at 8+ and ate and now... yea posting.
just got pissed at aletheia. and like emo.
aish. you can find out if you read my blog. not gonna tell you now.
lol gg sleep at 1030! alright..

2011-12-30T17:22:00.001-08:00

Crap todays gonna be a long day... GOD Please help! Ur Will be done:)

Psls

2011-12-28T21:09:00.001-08:00

Psl is a bloody waste of time. Srsly.
Most retarded time of my life lol.

Random-- 0685140101 my old french num.

2011-12-24T07:27:00.001-08:00

Fatigue dont be sad! Cos when ur sad im sad as Well! And i want to be happy! To give YOU a reason to be happy!!!

23/12/12

2011-12-23T05:48:00.000-08:00

life goes on sia. srsly.
SECOND DATE TODAY XD
love going out with you. cos love you maXD
(first date = movie date? XD)
went logos hope bookstore and bought many many book=D
(for christmas prezzies)
tmr is carolling! wanna hang out with church ppl agn!
and sunday christmas. hehe
OH AND THE BBQ GOT SECRET SANTA SO COOL!!!

and i got 2 christmas cards already!
so niceeee so touched for the thoughtsXD
and i got a (useless) christmas presentXD
hehe =P

lifes settling down again...starting to forget what it was like in france....=(

post...=(

2011-12-19T00:25:00.001-08:00

posting because ima lazy boy....
so sad that its over.
its all overrrr=(
hope we'll all meet again.
after the reunion i mean.
and the french as well...
kinda hard to keep in contact.
omg im totally posting nonsense.
dont know what to post la walao.

Second last day: wed

2011-12-14T13:58:00.001-08:00

Sad day:/ fun day but like were leaving!!!:( so vexons sad day.
Went pays basque for whole day. Morning had some dumb tour(but cool places) Den afternoon went aquarium! Im so happy to be able to spend the day with you!!! Im never ever gonna get tired of seeing you dear! Tkt sur le problème de rachelle. Je sais que je ferai pas continuer De la tenir. Je tenirai pas. Je l'abandonnerai. C'est over. LOL. Tkt!!!

Tuesday:/

2011-12-13T12:58:00.001-08:00

2 dais left:((((((
Today was.. Boring. LOL. Morning had press review like wth...? Like read article Den share. I went to read bout handball world championships (femmes) which is ongoing now. (gonna type in french now cos the autocorrect is bloody pissing me off...) les français, ou les bleues, championnes du monde de 2010, ont Gagné hier contre les championnes d'Europe, les suèdes, 26-23. Ils jouèrent contre les russes dans le finale du mondiale mais je pourrai pas le voir avec Matthieu:( crapitall. Après, nous sommes allé au une magasin qui (rents) les costumes spéciale pour événements. Le magasin a 26,000 costumes(si je peux retenir bien) et il était très cool! Après pendant le repas jai joué avec les français avec Dylan pour un peu aussi! Le musée était ennuyer (but for you...)
Surtout, c'était une jour ennuyer et triste, parce que je peux pas éviter rachelle, et elle veux pas me (forgive). Sorry darling i tried and tried alr okay. Nothing i CAN do bout it cept cry? Which dosent help. Bloody hell. Sighssighsisighs. Forget it luh. Dont "dont" me when i say this. I dont want to givre up too but... What CAN i do!:( tell me luh LOL. Jiu ge zou ge de ba. Cong ci bu zai jian mian. Ha. Ha ha. Pathetic sia. How much value peuple place on relationships these days. Bloody pathetic. Ill stop here before i Starr blaspheming. Despite all these THANKYOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING.
In a terrible mood now. Sighs what a bloody disgusting end to this journey. Disgusted.

Last monday:(

2011-12-12T12:19:00.001-08:00

Morning we went to this vineyard(domaine de la solitude) Den okay ah. Den ate at school(ohyea) Den played bball and touch rug with e french ppl! Omg gonna miss this:/ then had some boring french lesson where we had to write a poem so i write some emo nonsense copied from boulevard of broken Dreams Den the cher said it was good like o.O
So happy that the songs we wanted to present Turned out okay. Like preparation everything was okay. Thanks god. Sang aux champs Elysées, at the beginning, and somewhere only we know. Haha wanna sing at the beginning with youuuuXD haha so happy that i managed to take lotsa photos with lotsa people!!! Sorry you were Like forced to take photo with me... But at least we got some photos now:) love you la you so cute:) sorry didnt really talk to you tonight:) im so gonna miss the french ppl...:/
Anws rachelle is still ignoring/being cold to me:( its sad but i guess ive nô choice just let her be. You cant make someone forgive you, even if she used to treat you lile a brother:/ or i guess she didnt then. She just called you that on a whim. What a farce. But idc.
Got you can alr:)

Last sunday. Crap

2011-12-11T13:33:00.001-08:00

Crap 4 more days only!!!:(
Went pays basque(basque country) today. Cool place!!! Like th houses are all so pretty and cute and like in red and Green:) and the waves are huge... Haha:) and the Pyrénées are really Nice!!!!! Ate at the house of a family friend:) nais food. Den collected firewood and saw horsey:) Den saw nice nice sunset:) good day:) pray let tmr be better:/

End of last saturday. 1.11am.

2011-12-10T16:15:00.001-08:00

Today was eventful.
Went for laser tag with all e guys cept chongan plus zara regina and peishan. Den went Nike factory outlet, then matthieus handball match, then 2 parties. Cool!
Im a retard.
After lasertag Den we wen shopping like tgthr den like got talk to zara la Den like thot we were getting to finally be friands again Den i pissed her off at night at the second party. I. Am. A. Retard. I need to learn to be nicer?:/

Last saturday

2011-12-10T00:14:00.001-08:00

LOL ytd was last friday nightXD anws theres only bloody 5 days left! Crap la. Pissed rachelle off 2 days back. Hope we'll be okay by monday? I really dont want to end this trip with sour relationships:((((

Day 14

2011-12-09T12:47:00.001-08:00

Heh. Cats butt stinks... Anws the sole of my nikes came out halfway during handball training Den Like hadta stop. Did 10 suicides barefoot/with socks after:) haha tired now but trying to figure out how to get to lasertag tmr. Darling i wanna talk to you!!!!

6 more days:/

2011-12-09T08:59:00.001-08:00

Goin for my second(and last) handball training. Bought a cap im prolly gonna give away(cos dont rly look Nice in it) and okay Nice jeans(for 9€!!) anws todays pe lesson was cool(volleyball-ziwei Failed at it) and erm the lunch a th hospitality sch was cool:) had cocktails before that. Cool Max. Just that some ppl got drunk XD post mire latéral

Déc 8, 7 more days

2011-12-08T10:17:00.001-08:00

Crap 7 more days. One more week. Omg. OH MY GOD!! Crap. I dowanna leave!!!!! Crapcrapcrap. NOOOO:( omg. Tokay was pretty boring. Borin walk(cept for you:) ) and Boring games:P but i like seeing everyone hav fun so it fine:) disgusting borin Movie(i slept) XD and cool taijiquan class XD i donwanna leave this grp of cool people! I wont see some of them again omg!!!:( AND ALLTHE FRENCH PPL!!!!!!!

Day 12 pt 2

2011-12-07T10:16:00.001-08:00

Oh anyways today was great i love meeting new people on the basketball court! Its a Pitt we have to leave so soon:( gonna miss the people and the EVERYTHING here:(

Day... 12:(

2011-12-07T10:14:00.001-08:00

Gosh its day 12 le! Crap! Im gonna miss the ppl here:( omgggggggg crap la! Now i sound like regina but leaving is just so sad! I prolly wont cry but ill hug you when you do:) i know youll cry and its fine:) Its so fast oh no! Its like a tsunami:(

11th morning

2011-12-05T23:33:00.001-08:00

I feel like im wasting my stay hère sleeping away. I wanna do more! Will ask him to aloi me to go to school at 8 each morn by myself

Day... Dk day 9? Or 10

2011-12-05T11:00:00.001-08:00

Crap its alr day 10 oh no! Haha:)
Love you you Were so cute today hug:) held ur hand:P
Today went ice skating and shopping mall and christmas market and cool capscience muséum:) yay:)
I wanna hug you:)

Sunday night!

2011-12-04T12:58:00.001-08:00

Thank you god:)
Youre the best;)
So happy to be forgiven;)
Watched in time!!! Notbad!!:) Den had crepes:) naisnais. Sundays are forever Nice:) thank you god love you:) sleepy sleepy. Tmrs a great great dayyyy:) ice skating ohyea!!!!!

Sunday morning!

2011-12-04T01:44:00.001-08:00

Réponds me of the song Marc sang for rafflesian spotlight. Sunday morning!!! Hope you arent angry with me anymore... Just Woke the whole house with my noisy walkingXD i was woken by the rain! At 10 plus XD rained agn... Bloody rainy day

Day 8, second saturday

2011-12-03T16:36:00.001-08:00

Omg one more saturday only!
Watched matthieus match with interestXD jc join handball :P the party was fun and crazy-ish. The french ppl kept wanting me to pick up a girl. Den so weird. But dancing was quite fun! And i tried some new stuffs.
But... Sighs. Forgive me please! Im sorry... Did i disappoint you alot?:/ i just wanted to try something new... But thats not a good excuse i know:/

Mercredi, le fin de le premier semaine

2011-12-02T14:07:00.001-08:00

This, is day 7. Omg 1/3 of the journey is over! Its so fast! Thank god for the wonderfully wonderful weather these few days!!! Went to château roquetaillade in the afternoon and played basketball with random peeps during lunch before that! Went for handball training with Matthieu after and saw the basketball dude caspard. Then we had a party at cassios. Was the only sg Guy:( me and matthieu:( if only you Were there lorrr. But that wouldnt Really change anything. Mélissa was unhelpful... Sighs why liddat... :/

Day 6!

2011-12-01T10:01:00.001-08:00

Thrsday! Funnest day of yet;) haha went to arcachon and bought like one sweater with one box of biscuits. Den went to this wonderfully Nice beach and then to some 25m Tall tower on a Hill overlooking everything. Den we went to dune of pyla omg so Fun. Roll rollroll:) haha had so much fun! And youre so cuteee XD haha held your hand :P<3 LOL my posts are inverted forgot to post this. You looked réal cute today as well in the borrowed sweater:P todays friday:)

Day 5?

2011-11-30T12:01:00.001-08:00

Didnt have connexion to blog on day 4. Yay its back:) day 4 was nais:) day 5 was okay:) grand theatre Nicer than the expo at submarine base... And... Dk why but aiya. Why isit that you CAN affect me so bloody much. Its.... Mindblowing. And.... Sad...?
Yea sad.
And we came hère to be happy.

Day3!!

2011-11-28T10:00:00.001-08:00

Le fin de la 3ème jour, trop fatigue... J'ai allé au lycée par vélo, et après, faire les activités. Pendant le pause pour déjeuner, après manger, je joues du foot seule parce que les autres hommes ont beaucoup peur... Après, nous faisons une tour au pied de la quartier de pey berland et le région la. En retournant a l'école, je retourner a mon chez par vélo encore et après avoir pris une bain, joue le badminton avec Matthieu et son père.
On peut voir que c'etait un jour trop longues et je suis maintenant trop trop fatigué! Mais je n'ai mangé pas....
Shleepy

Le fin de le 2eme jour en Bordeaux

2011-11-27T09:57:00.001-08:00

Destroyer after a 13km bike tour... Prolly bene to all the places that we are gong to go to in the trip already LOL. Soooo tired... Not used to bikes. The trip become some serial biker alrXD
Cant wait to see everyone tmr. And youu, even if ifs only for a short while...

Meowmeow

2011-11-27T02:59:00.001-08:00

Woke up by thé ninja cat stepping on me:) Man. His paws are cold... Haha:) this is thé start of day 2, slept réal late at idk what Time so i... Am a pig. Haha:P wonder how the others are doing... Wonder how YOU are doing...

Bordeaux day one

2011-11-26T09:44:00.001-08:00

Long day isnt over yet! First party coming up. Hope everyone is happy and enjoying themselves:) everybodeh happy Den i happy:)

Perks of gender

2011-11-24T03:48:00.001-08:00

Girls have it easier than guys.
if they dont like something, all they have to do is cry. and everyone will give in to them!
everyone, that is until they meet another female. and all hell breaks lose.
when guys meet something they dont like, people say BE A MAN. and if you reallly dont like it, ITS NOT OKAY, no matter what people say.

2011-11-11T06:04:00.001-08:00

and lastly

2011-11-11T06:00:00.000-08:00

some dumbdumb wanted me to post

2011-10-31T08:10:00.000-07:00

4 愛是恆久忍耐，又有恩慈；愛是不嫉妒；愛是不自誇，不張狂， 5不做害羞的事，不求自己的益處，不輕易發怒，不計算人的惡， 6不喜歡不義，只喜歡真理； 7凡事包容，凡事相信，凡事盼望，凡事忍耐。

8愛是永不止息。

2011-10-15T07:19:00.000-07:00

so ironic.
ill be blogging about the person i shared my blog to.
and.
.

this is retarded.
we were just talking about dao-ing ppl.
den.
.

sec 1,
sec 2,
sec 3,
now sec 4 also.
okay.

if this is how things are going to be,
im resigned to fate.

to god be the glory.
the shame is all mine.
and the blame.

2011-10-10T05:24:00.000-07:00

Yes he Want to be loved, as do they all.
Ha.
Haha.
What a joke.
He cant even rely on himself.
He needs people to support him.

weak.
Just weak.
But he knows what he has to do.

And he'll deliver.
He always does.
Doesnt he?

2011-10-10T05:23:00.001-07:00

I love you.
More than many things.
But Its not enough.
I need god more.
Im Sorry.

2011-10-10T03:30:00.001-07:00

Exam stress.
the result of exceeding amounts of procrastination

moi?

2011-09-30T09:03:00.000-07:00

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=1979207167758&set=a.1351228708689.2043102.1470534071&type=1&theater

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=260154664011818&set=a.249731371720814.77346.191777737516178&type=1&theater

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2011-09-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

now that I know you dont love me,
or like me,
the skies are not less bright.
how could my eyes fail me as well?
the tastes are not less bland.
how could my tongue fail me now?

No no,
life still goes on.
I couldnt bear it otherwise.
or bare it.
all.

2011-09-26T02:34:00.001-07:00

Anything you say can cheer me up.
Thats cos Its you.

2011-09-22T09:10:00.000-07:00

被爱的感觉真好

2011-09-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

I Want to hear you say I love you.
But I dont Want what you dont mean.

human condition

2011-09-18T21:21:00.000-07:00

Quite pathetic the human condition nay?
when we feel bad we act normal.
And nobody notices and we feel worse.

When we feel good we show the world
And That defines us.

but does it really?

2011-08-30T08:07:00.001-07:00

you're my... best friend.
and yet its an agony knowing you, talking to you, chatting with you.
agonizing.

2011-08-29T07:36:00.001-07:00

My heart isnt jetlagged.
It just cant keep up with you

2011-08-25T08:16:00.003-07:00

i know its pointless to wait but i'll wait.

which is more flawed, the former knowledge or the latter action?

2011-08-24T04:44:00.001-07:00

enough.

go and die.

2011-08-24T04:09:00.000-07:00

imagination. kind or cruel?
365 posts already. one year of posts?
a fitting number.
to a fitting day.

ruined.
empty.
maybe we're trying, trying too hard?
maybe we're torn apart...

maybe.

lost.
lost all focus.
all direction.

where to now?

demoted.
nothing to something.
to nothing.

pride.

PREJUDICE.

Loss.

wheres the gain?

think. think.

think again.

reflect.

restart.

its a brand new day a brand new beginning...

2011-08-23T05:39:00.001-07:00

Cant wait for novembre. Den december, then next june. Then... I dont know. Jc?

half of my heart

2011-08-03T06:52:00.000-07:00

Is it just me,
Left,
Holding on to the memories when all the worlds moved on?

Half of my heart takes time.

2011-07-27T06:01:00.000-07:00

Life is so sad without the French.
But they gave me a purpose and inspiration.
I wanna improve myself now.
My French, my floorball,
And I want to pick up jap.
Or a 4th language.!!!
Jys me

2011-07-22T07:56:00.000-07:00

Sad.
Their gone:(:(:(
A good experience overall.
Trying out new things,
Knowing new people.
It's cool .
But I miss them:(
So do alot of us.
Its so sad.... Sighs.
Haish...

la vie avec les française

2011-07-19T07:59:00.000-07:00

Its been a great fulfilling few days/weeks.
So different from my usual way of wasting my life.
I can actually get sooo much done!
If only I did it for myself and not someone else.
Wouldn't that be great.
I'm irresponsible.
And can't say no to Kyle.
But who cares.
Thank god thank god...
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush

lines

2011-07-11T04:14:00.001-07:00

learning to draw more lines for myself.
between stupidity and intelligence.
its that fine.

2011-07-10T07:29:00.001-07:00

experiencing how joy is truly truly a choice.
you can choose how you want to feel.
you can choose to move on or not,
to dwell in fear,
in hate,
in anger,
in uselessness.
or you can choose joy.
choose to move on.

helps to have someone to talk to =D

maybe its not my weekend,
but its gonna be my year.
yes lord.

2011-07-02T07:00:00.000-07:00

Gained so much in the past weeks!
Learning to depend on gods providence,
To be joyful in all circumstance,
To not curse,
To overcome bad tempers with courtesy and nice-ness.

Got my first ever floorball medal too!

And matthieu is coming TOMORROW!
Its all so fast....
And its all going to be over soon.
But not to worry!
God will provide!

For the joy of the lord is my strength!

Life on e streetz

2011-06-15T04:56:00.000-07:00

seeing all the different but similar people
walk pass one another on the street,
my heart aches.
such a tragedy
tis'.
reminds one of the futility.
the futility of life.
despair mortals.
despair,
for we were made for better,
greater,
stronger,
and most of all,
for nicer.

reminiscence

2011-06-01T06:28:00.000-07:00

just realised that I owe a lot of people something, and a some people alot.
and i realize i have no right to judge, no right to scold,
no right to be angry, and no right to be hurt.
my emotions are not my own.
their yours.

my dreammm

2011-05-29T23:42:00.000-07:00

had a real cool vivid dream.

it started with me walking down a corridor with Velerie (penguin).
and then i suddenly lost all my clothes, and we came to class.
and we were in VJC mind.
and velerie opened the door and went into class..
and some people saw me through the open door.
me being in my underpants(idk why kay) and laughed at me.
den i closed the door and stayed outside luh...
den i went to the back door and saw Gaius, who apparently transfered to VJC with me,
and he was in his RI PE. idk why.
and i asked him to lend me his jacket and his WHITE long pants.(RI PANTS-.-)
and then i remember going into class and sitting beside velerie. cool?
considering i've never seen velerie before.
and i think andrew tan was sitting beside gaius.
and somewhere along the way i remember shouting
IM IN THE TOP FLOORBALL SCHOOL.
when VJC lost to MJC in the A div guys finals. hm....

cherin

2011-05-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

Thank god our dear sister is okay.

Death always makes people think, dont YOU think?
Not death persay but an encounter with death.
Close or not so close.
It makes people wonder about their mortality.
And makes their minds wander about what they'd do with their lives.
Makes one think dont it?

Ah reckin' so sah.
Yea ah do reckin' so.

2011-05-28T04:10:00.000-07:00

Hope, and your hopes will die.
But if you do not dream,YOU will die.

2011-05-26T06:47:00.001-07:00

this is how i feel now.

2011-05-26T06:34:00.001-07:00

2011-05-26T06:20:00.001-07:00

from hopeful, to hurt, to tired, to pissed.
its amazing the capacity of emotions in humans.
the frialty of our kind.

all in the space of one night.

revelations?

2011-05-21T06:52:00.000-07:00

I am a...
varied person?

going from thinking about relationships,
to mortality,
to thinking about thinking,
to thinking about thinking about thinking.

what then?
qu'est la probleme?
c'est vie.
tis life.

2011-05-11T07:20:00.000-07:00

Learnt my lesson.
Mommy was right.
Don't trust strangers.

They can hurt you.

you never really took me as your bro didya.
Well its over.
Suan le.
I'll never like nanchiau high again.
Thanks ah.

2011-05-09T05:55:00.000-07:00

heartaching.
just waiting.

Lets put a 10 on the high card.
i spent my summer on the west coast.

2011-05-09T04:12:00.000-07:00

I miss you sis.

Everytime I log in or everytime I see a new message I just hope and hope and pray that its from you.

But it never is.

It's beginning to feel like I'm talking to someone in coma.

Someone who will never reply.

Like I'm hoping for the impossible.

Sis, our relationship can't even one argument?

Sis I'll just keep waiting.

And I'll keep talking. Like you're deaf. But I know you're there.

If you'd just give me a chance...

Sis...

2011-05-08T04:23:00.001-07:00

I just want you
Back in my life.

Sorry sis.
Forgive me?

2011-05-05T06:41:00.000-07:00

im a person of contradictions.

but its great to know new people.
got to know like 5 more people++
its cool.
the stupidest situations can bring together friends which last long.

we click, not because we have a certain chemistry, but because we both want it to work.
and so it shall work.

thank you nica and megan=D

xing wu

2011-05-01T04:37:00.000-07:00

Bu shi ni Li Kai le wo, er shi wo Li bu Kai ni, xiang Gen ren shi ni.

easter!

2011-04-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

being a working 30+ guy with a wife and kid isnt so bad...
as long as its in a play.
and i have lotsa money.
sure why not?

oh and i positively hateee heels.

oh and if you ask if this is what i took away from this years easter...
ermmmmmm

hope is not = to desire=DDDD SEE I LISTENED TO SERMON=P

pfffft.

2011-04-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

Parents are SUPPOSED to be supportive.
Supposed. To. Be.
Ha. Ha.
To hell with that.
Supportive my ass...

Oh and yes I do have a right to complain. I'm a pampered, over-protected, stupid City-bred kid. Too bad.

IRIS OST - Don't Forget (Baek Ji Young) w/ Simple Romanji Lyrics.mp4

2011-04-17T06:52:00.000-07:00

screwed up.
big boys dont cry.

crying is gooood.

gooood way to release your pent up emotions.

and leaves you spent and ready for sleep.

perfect.....

we cry out.

dont forget me iris ost

wassup yo

2011-04-17T04:41:00.001-07:00

hello wassup
posting a "happy" post so that SOMEONE wun say my blog emo.
HMPH LOL

13/4/11

2011-04-13T05:57:00.001-07:00

Identity crisis. Again.

flaws

2011-04-13T05:46:00.000-07:00

You all think you know me. Bur you don't. That little boy inside. Too scared to own up to his mistakes. That little boy inside with just enough luck to not cause any big trouble but not enough luck to avoid all the trouble. That little boy who doesn't know what to do in the face of his mistakes. Who's awkward. Scared. Of being wrong. Who wants someone to hug him. To hold him. But there's no one there os there? No I think not. A fools dream for a friend, a friends dream as a fool, a fools dream to be a friend .

Chang yi shou jian Dan de ge,rang ni de Xing qing kuai le.....
Mei yi qi he ni fen Kai, wo Zhen de bei ni Da bai...

Im trying. Trying.
Lost.
Looking for something that may prove to be nothing.
The pointless pursuit of life.
Of happyness.
Of meaning.

Aye the pursuit of happYness.
Aye.

dying....

2011-04-10T05:49:00.000-07:00

12km-1hr16mins.

what dya think?

slowly drowning.
thank god for all the nice happy funny people in my life.
thank god for all the cute cool retarded people in my life.
and thank god for you whoever you are,
who's reading this.
cos you care. or you dont.
i dont.

me.

2011-04-03T05:56:00.000-07:00

like some cruel cycle.
up down up down.
stupid max.
you like me i dont like you
i like you you dont like me
stupid...

no sophistication=me

Simple Plan - Crazy Official Music Video

2011-04-01T06:42:00.000-07:00

...No one cares, no one likes to share... Is everybody going crazy?

yamakasi.

2011-03-29T07:22:00.000-07:00

Yamakasi.
the french samurai.
the modern samurai.
the parkour samurai.
the last samurai.

YAMAKASI!

mom

2011-03-28T06:19:00.000-07:00

You think you know so much but you don't know anything.
you think you're right about everything but times are changing.
you think all you do is for my good but you gotta give me some room to breathe.

the worst mom isn't one who doesn't care. its one who doesn't care about who you really are.

school...

2011-03-27T17:10:00.000-07:00

School so Sian-.- first period on monday and Sian max-.-

SHOESheart

2011-03-27T07:22:00.001-07:00

love the new asics enduro 5.
its like running on springs!
nice tagline=D

2011-03-25T07:11:00.000-07:00

realised that this is quite dead.....

Love the chris medina song.
wazzit called?
what are words?

FEAR

2011-03-17T03:10:00.003-07:00

im so scared.
did something wrong
AGAIN.
as always.
i fail the people around me.
i FAIL.
shit.
so scared.

sounds

2011-03-16T06:03:00.001-07:00

Sounds have a life of their own.
Melodies tell a story.
Harmonies provide testimonies.
Notes are people.
Bars are chapters of life.
and a Score, thats MY life.

Yiruma- River flows in you

New Life Worship | Great I Am

2011-03-14T21:02:00.000-07:00

The great I am.

God of this city

2011-03-13T06:20:00.000-07:00

greater things are still to come
and greater things are still to be done in this city.

yes they are talking to you japan.
Yes god is there.

church.

2011-03-13T00:00:00.000-08:00

God seems to not change for me everyday... he's supposed to grow bigger as i grow older? Hm...

numbers

2011-03-11T06:33:00.000-08:00

24th.
thats the number man.
interhouse cross country.
24th.
could have been 19th.
but ah well.
no will.
walk.
24th.
lousy me.
but at least i got a medal.
a medal.
and a badge.
a badge.
24th.